My Feelings | 03.08.16

The worst feeling you can feel is not being appreciated and being taken advantage of.  Feeling like you’re putting in 110% into something and it meaning nothing to anyone else.  All I want to do is make other people happy because that’s what makes me happy.  I’ve given my all and my all doesn’t seem to be good enough anymore.  I want someone to appreciate all that I do.  See all the effort I put into even the smallest of things.  I love with all my heart and it’s so dangerous.  Anyone has to ability to drag me down and stomp on me at any given moment.  It’s terrifying.  I feel too much.   I let people tell me what my worth is.  If someone doesn’t like something I do, I let that thing tear me apart until I can’t handle it anymore.  I knock myself down over the smallest things.


Maybe I’m giving my all to all the wrong people.  If someone wants and needs you in their life, they’ll make it work.  No matter the circumstances.  I think sometimes we forget that we get to choose who is apart of our life and who isn’t.  Sometimes we let the wrong people get too close to us and it ends up a mess.  I remind myself how great I am, how someone is going to appreciate all that I do one day.  Someone is going to love me like I love them.  This goes for friendships, relationships, family relationships, everything.


We’re all worth so much more than what we think.  We’re all amazing, we all have unique characteristic that someone else dies over.  Don’t ever forget to love yourself everyday.  We all get caught up in trying to be accepted by people, we often forget about ourselves and our well being.  You always come first.  Love yourself, cherish yourself, spoil yourself.  Never become dependent on ANYONE because they can leave you in a split second like it never meant a thing to them.


Don’t forget your worth gals, you’re amazing.
xoxo, Kelly

I need to talk | 02.20.16

Lately all I’ve really been posting on here is about the YouTube videos I have been uploading.  I want this to be platform for my videos but also a place where I can post about my life and other things I’m passionate about.  This past week I’ve been incredibly busy getting things done that I’ve had to get done. I was so busy I barely had time to just have me time. I love being busy and productive. Today is Saturday and it’s the first day in a week where I don’t NEED to do anything. I woke up early and went to the farmers market and the store to get a few things. I don’t have any plans for the remainder of the day and I feel so empty. I feel like I should be doing something and being productive but I don’t have anything to do. I feel like I’m doing nothing with my life, which is wrong because I am. It just feels so weird to not be doing anything because I’ve been so busy. Does this happen to anyone else? It’s just a weird feeling and it stresses me out. It’s kind of ridiculous.


Another thing I wanted to talk about was friendships. I have very very few friends. I don’t have any friends where I live right now, all my friends are from my hometown, which I only get to communicate with through text and social media. Lately my friendships have been feeling like so much work and I don’t think thats right. I don’t want my friendships to feel like work, I just want them to be. You know what I mean? I don’t want to feel like I need to entertain and talk to them 24/7 because I honestly don’t have the time to be on the phone 24/7. (My phone is always on me so if anyone needed anything I’d be able to answer.) But I don’t have time to be glued to my phone and have lengthy conversations with them all day everyday. Ending friendships that you think just aren’t working out is one the hardest things to do and I have no clue on how to go about it. It’s almost worst than breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend. Anyone have any advice on how to end a friendship but not have it turn into a drama filled bullshit ass thing? Please help. Hahahah.


Thanks for reading, I’ve had so much on my mind lately and I’m glad this is a place where I can let all of it out at. See you in my next post! :) It’ll be a more positive one, I promise.

xoxo, Kelly

UNPOPULAR OPINIONS | 02.17.16

You know all those mainstream things that are liked by the majority of people?  Like Star Wars for an example, but you don’t give a crap about Star Wars?  I feel this way about so many things!  So I made a video about it.  I uploaded a new video on my youtube on unpopular opinions.  I talked about 8 but I could come up with so many more.  Can you guys relate?!  I can’t be the only one.  Check out my video here!  Comment and tell me you came from my blog and let me know what unpopular opinions you have!  I’m really curious!


Thank you guys so much!  I love you all more than you’ll ever know. :)

Xoxo, Kelly

HOW TO PRACTICE POSITIVITY | 02.10.16

Hey guys!  Today on my YouTube channel I uploaded a new video talking all about the ways I try to stay positive during negative moments.  Being positive is difficult thing to be and no one is expected to be optimistic all day everyday, everyone has their down days and that’s completely okay!  You can click here to watch my video.  Give it a thumbs up and comment that you came from my blog!!  That would be awesome!


I hope you all enjoy!  What are somethings you do that helps you stay positive during rough times?  I’d love to know!


Xoxo, Kelly

IPSY GLAM BAG

Have you heard of the Ipsy glam bag!  I’ve seen it on Facebook and have heard about it on youtube and was always so interested in it!  It’s a monthly subscription that sends you 5 makeup items each month for only $10!!!  It includes samples of name brand items.  I just subscribed for my first month and you can too by using my referral code! CLICK HERE.  I hope you guys enjoy and I will make a post about all the items I get next month!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR | 01.17.16

I didn’t forget about you guys, I promise.  I hope every single one of you had a wonderful and Christmas and rung in the New Year right.  I was going to post a what I got for Christmas post again this year, but you’ll never believe what I got!  My boyfriend!!  My dad flew my boyfriend to TX to spend his winter break with me!  How amazing is that?  Which also explains why I haven’t posted anything since last year.

Having my boyfriend here was so awesome.  We did so many fun things and made so many memories.  I obviously took many pictures while he was here and figured I’d share them with you guys.

Before I post the pictures I also wanted to let you guys know that I started a YouTube channel!  You can click here to check it out.  There’s some funny videos with my boyfriend that you’ll die laughing at!  You can subscribe and comment on one of my videos that you came from my blog!  That would be awesome to know!

Very thankful for him and all the memories each one of these photos represents.  I love him so much and I can’t wait for more adventures and memories throughout the years. <3


xoxo, Jelly

PICTURES I LOVE || 12.19.15

Here’s a collection of pictures that I’ve taken over the years that I really enjoy looking at. :)  Enjoy.

I’m almost positive this picture was taken while my mom and I were driving through Oklahoma.  I’m not sure what the meaning behind it all is, but if I remember correctly I saw two of these crosses.  I’ve never seen anything like it.  I thought it was cool.

This photo was taken from my bedroom window in Missouri.  Doesn’t the sky look amazing?  I’ve seen some of the best sunsets in Missouri.

I’m obsessed with the moon.  I didn’t mean to get the branch and leaves but it looks so good.

Slight obsession with the moon. :)

Black and white moon!  I like this with the tree branches peeking in.

This was taken on the Black River in Watertown NY.  One of the nights my friends and I camped on ‘the island.’  Amazing memories on this river I’ll never forget.

My boyfriends brother was burning a bunch of leaves in their fire pit in the back yard and smoked out the whole neighborhood.  He ran inside and told me to come out and look.  I took this picture and I think it looks awesome with him standing there.  Looks like something out of movie.

El Paso, TX - Beautiful sunset and the mountains.

Somewhere in NY :)

My obsession with the moon, once again.

Right before I took off to St Louis, MO.  Sunsets are a beautiful thing.

My boyfriend and I were at Black Pond in Henderson Harbor, NY.  We would always bring his dog because he loves to swim.  We were watching the sun set and I looked over at them, told him to look at me and I captured this beautiful picture of them in the water.  I’m not sure what it is about this picture but I absolutely love it.  I want to get a really nice picture frame and give it to him as a present.  The water just makes it look so peaceful.  Plus, a dog is a mans best friend. ;)

DEAR 2015

Dear 2015,

Thank you for not being completely miserable like 2013 and 2014 were.  This year I really found my happiness and it’s one of the greatest feelings.  From being in such a deep dark place, I never thought I’d ever be happy.  I can proudly say I’ve been through hell and back and I rose up to be a better person and most importantly a more happier person.  I’ve learned a lot about friendships, family, and relationships in general.  Never put effort in where it shouldn’t be.  If you don’t feel something is going to benefit you, don’t do it.  Do everything that makes you happy.  Don’t think so much about what other people think because it will ruin you.

I’m thankful for all the new friendships I’ve made and how happy I am.  I’’m happy I’m happy.  I never thought I’d be this happy.  I’m happy living back in Texas and I’m content with where I’m at.  Everything is going well.  I hope 2016 is as good and even better than 2015 has been.  Always stay positive even in the darkest times.  I’m so thankful and happy happy happy.

INFATUATED WITH THE MOON || 12.13.15

One of my favorite quotes, which I have shared in a previous post is:

there was a reason

that she was so

romantic about

the moon.

it never asked her

questions or begged

for the answers nor

did she ever have

to prove herself

to it.

it was always just

there- breathing

shining,

in ways most

humans can’t understand,

-listening.

- Christopher Poindexter

I’ve always been the person who shouts “look at the moon!” when we’re outside at night.  You’ll always find me capturing photos at night, knowing what time the moon is going to rise and what phase it’s going to be.  There’s something awfully beautiful about it.  Here’s some photos I’ve caught of it over the past few months.  Enjoy.

Blood Moon 2015

Blood Moon 2015

Blood Moon 2015

Blood Moon 2015

I watched the moon rise this night.  It looked so large and amazing.  This was the best picture I could get since the power lines were in the way.

This is one of my favorite pictures of the moon that I’ve captured.  I call it ‘between the trees'

LONG TIME NO POST || 12.12.15

HELLO.

Holy cow, it’s almost been a year since my last blog post.  I regret not keeping up with this blog.  I had some extra time to just be on my computer and remembered this blog I started a year ago.  I read through all my posts and thought how amazing and interesting it was getting to re-read all my thoughts from an entire year ago.  I want to stick with it this time.  I’m not going to let anything get in my way.  I have so much to update you all on..well not a lot but, whatever. ;)

First, I moved!!! I no longer live in lost in the woods, Missouri!  I’ve moved back to Texas and I love it.  It’s December 12 and it was 77 degrees yesterday.  From growing up in New York and experiencing -30 degree weather this time of year, this is complete heaven to me!  Second, I’m a nanny.  It’s not the job I had in mind, but I really do enjoy it.  I spent this past summer in New York with my boyfriend, which is always a splendid time.  

I’m really looking forward to posting many many many more posts here!  Stay tuned because there’s so much more coming your way!


Xoxo, Kelly <3

01.04.15 - 60 THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY

1. Road trips
2. Early morning coffee
3. Good hair days
4. Fresh scents
5. New clothes
6. Freshly washed face
7. Sleeping in
8. Ed Sheeran
9. Getting lost in TV shows
10. Cuddling
11. Sitting in airports
12. Meeting new people
13. Hearing peoples dreams
14. Slippers
15. Sweatpants
16. Making lists
17. Writing
18. A clean room
19. Accomplishing a goal
20. Hockey games
21. Walks
22. Pictures
23. Coffee mugs
24. Soft blankets
25. Sunshine
26. Dogs
27. French Fries
28. Rainy Sundays
29. When water taste good
30. Chips & salsa
31. YouTube
32. Bathrobes 
33. Hearing people say ‘I love you’
34. Bonfires
35. My best friends
36. Christmas lights
37. Getting things in the mail
38. Finding new music
39. Country music
40. Picnics
41. The beach
42. Traveling
43. Dance parties
44. Bubble baths
45. The moon
46. Lava lamps
47. Making bracelets
48. Baking
49. Sunsets
50. Learning
51. Kids
52. Laughing til I cry
53. Chocolate
54. Cute notebooks
55. Psychology 
56. Animals
57. Surprises
58. Turquoise 
59. Honest people
60. Decorating

01.01.15 - HAPPY NEW YEAR

Everyone always says “new year, new me!” and I think that’s so lame.  You can change who you are any day, a new year doesn’t change that.  I usual set goals for myself, things I want to accomplish throughout the year.  Becoming a better you is something I think everyone should try every single day, not just for a couple days into the new year and forget about it.  So my goals aren’t going to be ‘be nicer’ ‘be a better friend’ nothing like that.  These are big things that I want to accomplish, on top of continuing to be care free and happy throughout all the ups and downs that I may go through this year.  Now at the end of this year I’m going to look back on this post and make another post and see what I actually accomplished and if I didn’t accomplish something I’ll explain why.  I think this will give me more courage to go after what goals I set.

The first thing I want to do is purchase my first semester of college.  I’m going online because I personally prefer.  I finally have enough money so I plan on starting this when I return from New York at the end of January.

My second goal ties into my first goal, but I’m hoping to at least finish half my degree by June, which may be hard because I’m starting a job and I’ll be moving so my Internet and things will be shut off in May and I’ll be on the road for a couple days to get to Texas, but if I don’t finish by then I hope to be half way done by August.

My third goal is to make a healthy transition back to Texas.  Going to place where I don’t know anybody is difficult, but I’ve moved twice in 1 year so hopefully third time is a charm and it’s easier for me.

My fourth goal is to save up money and really pay attention to what I spend my money on.  I want to be able to still afford to visit New York every few months and still be able to afford my schooling. 

My fifth goal is to get a job with USAA.  I’m going to be studying child development in school so working at their daycare will be such a great experience and a plus is they might help pay for my schooling which would be such an ideal situation for me.

So those are my 5 big goals I hope to accomplish this year.  I know things won’t come easy and I’ll work hard for what I want and study even harder.  We’ll see where this year takes me and see if I’m strong enough to conquer all the battles.  I wish everyone a happy new year and I hope this year doesn’t disappoint!  What are some of your goals for 2015?

Xoxo, Kelly

12.27.14 - CHRISTMAS

I hope everyone had a great Christmas! (or whatever you celebrate)  I had a great Christmas with my family.  We don’t go all out for Christmas, but we always do such a big breakfast after opening presents.  This year my mom found new recipes, a french toast dish and an egg dish.  I only had (literally half) the french toast, I wish I could wake up everyday eat that french toast it was so delicious.  I will add a post including that recipe soon.  I got so many great things for Christmas, the most exciting part for me is the stocking.  My parents always find so many little neat things to stuff in there, but it’s all useful, which I love.  This year I didn’t really ask for anything, so everything I got was such a surprise.  I’d like to share with you my two favorite things I got and include a little review on them, even though I’ve only been using them a couple days, it shows how much I love them! So, here we go!

First lets talk about my Starbucks travel mug!  I’m pretty sure it’s from their holiday dot collection, but I’m not entirely sure.  My dad totally surprised me with this.  I have a unhealthy addiction to Starbucks.  The mug really keeps your drink nice and warm, it’s pretty, and it holds a lot.  I’m so happy I got one, there’s so many different patterns and I do believe it was on sale. (so it was under $20)  It was a perfect gift, I’m always drinking coffee or tea on the go - so now I can do it in style.

Second, my clarisonic.  The smile on my face when I opened this was ridiculous.  I’ve been wanting one of these, but haven’t got the courage to spend my own money on it.  I’ve used this maybe 5 times and the difference in my skin already is crazy.  It’s super soft and I can see it helping with my acne.  I wouldn’t say I have bad acne, but I at least have 1 pimple on my face and when that time of the month comes, it’s a horrible week.  I’m hoping this helps tone it down a bit.  So far I’m so impressed with it and it makes me excited to wash my face everyday.  I recommend this to everybody, acne prone skin or not.  It’ll make your skin so smooth and soft you’ll fall in love with it.

What did you get for Christmas?  Did you get a Starbucks mug or a clarisonic?  How do you like it?  Let me know what you think in the comments below!

Xoxo, Kelly

12.22.14 - TOP 10 FAV SONGS

Who doesn’t love some good tunes to listen to while you’re hanging out with your friends, or like me, laying around your room with your dog!  Music is something I’m listening to all the time, it’s like therapy.  Some songs make me happy, some make me sad, some are filled with memories you’ll never forget, and I think it’s absolutely amazing how music can do that, so let’s get this list started pals.

Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran

This song holds a really special meaning to my heart.  I listen to this at least once a day, but more like 15 times a day.  It’s going to be one of those songs for me that never gets old.  Every time I listen to it I’m still going to smile like a dork and get butterflies. Props to you Ed, you are a genius,

Style - Taylor Swift

Taylor is filled with such sass in her new album.  To me this song is so catchy, I love everything about it.  The mood it puts me in is so great.  You’ll always catch me singing along to it.  It may possibly get annoying to me in a few months, but right now I’m loving it 100%.

Fast Life - Asher Roth

This song I always listen to with my friends.  It brings back memories, but it also reminds me to always sit back and not take life so seriously, enjoy the small moments because life does go by so fast.

Summer Nights - Iration

This song will always be so so important to me, this song is that song that holds 1000 memories with your closest friends.  My goodness, all those summer nights spent together, doing some crazy things with the 2 people that are closest to me.  This song represents our friendship and that one summer I will never forget.

One - Ed Sheeran

This song doesn’t hold a special meaning to me specifically, but I think it sends out such a great message and has such a beautiful story to go along with it.  It really lays your heart out there and I love it. Again, props to you Ed.

Santa Barbara - Nick Jonas

Now, I don’t only love this song..but I love Nick Jonas.  Hubba, hubba.  This song is so chilled and laid back I love listening to this when I’m writing or quickly picking up my room.  I personally love his whole album, but this song sticks out to me.

Night Changes - One Direction

I was never a Directioner, but I downloaded their new album and this song just gets me.  I’m not sure what it is but whenever it comes on I get happy and it gets me all up in my feels and I love it.

Take Your Time - Sam Hunt

Sam Hunt is the next big thing, I’m telling you.  This song is beautiful, it’s a mix of everything.  See for yourself how great it is.

Live For - The Weeknd

I’ve recently become obsessed with The Weeknd.  I don’t know what it is, but I love this song.  I sing/rap to it, it makes me smile.  I love the vibes.  The Weeknd isn’t usually something you’d catch me listening to, but it’s nice to step out of your comfort zone every once in awhile, am I right?

Little Do You Know - Alex & Sierra

THIS SONG MAKES ME SO SAD.  I love how beautiful their voices are, how deep and meaningful this song is.  It’s so much greatness, I CRY.  Oh it’s so lovely, give it a listen.  Their entire album is amazing, their voices are like angels.

I recommend you check out these songs on youtube or if you’re obsessed with them as I am, comment below and let me know why you enjoy them so much.  What are some of your favorite tunes?  I’m always down to listen to new music.

Xoxo, Kelly

11.30.14

I am a Pinterest junky, I admit that and I may need some serious help with it, but that is not what we are talking about today!  So, while I scroll through Pinterest hours at a time I find a lot of neat things, DIY projects, ways to make your own makeup, ways to make pimples disappear over night, so many neat things.  What catches my eyes the most are the endless amounts of quotes that are on that website.  I LOVE IT.  I have an entire folder just for quotes which is labeled "words."  I would like to share a few quotes I have found with you and hopefully it speaks to you all as it spoke to me!

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Xoxo, Kelly