My Feelings | 03.08.16

The worst feeling you can feel is not being appreciated and being taken advantage of.  Feeling like you’re putting in 110% into something and it meaning nothing to anyone else.  All I want to do is make other people happy because that’s what makes me happy.  I’ve given my all and my all doesn’t seem to be good enough anymore.  I want someone to appreciate all that I do.  See all the effort I put into even the smallest of things.  I love with all my heart and it’s so dangerous.  Anyone has to ability to drag me down and stomp on me at any given moment.  It’s terrifying.  I feel too much.   I let people tell me what my worth is.  If someone doesn’t like something I do, I let that thing tear me apart until I can’t handle it anymore.  I knock myself down over the smallest things.


Maybe I’m giving my all to all the wrong people.  If someone wants and needs you in their life, they’ll make it work.  No matter the circumstances.  I think sometimes we forget that we get to choose who is apart of our life and who isn’t.  Sometimes we let the wrong people get too close to us and it ends up a mess.  I remind myself how great I am, how someone is going to appreciate all that I do one day.  Someone is going to love me like I love them.  This goes for friendships, relationships, family relationships, everything.


We’re all worth so much more than what we think.  We’re all amazing, we all have unique characteristic that someone else dies over.  Don’t ever forget to love yourself everyday.  We all get caught up in trying to be accepted by people, we often forget about ourselves and our well being.  You always come first.  Love yourself, cherish yourself, spoil yourself.  Never become dependent on ANYONE because they can leave you in a split second like it never meant a thing to them.


Don’t forget your worth gals, you’re amazing.
xoxo, Kelly

HOW TO PRACTICE POSITIVITY | 02.10.16

Hey guys!  Today on my YouTube channel I uploaded a new video talking all about the ways I try to stay positive during negative moments.  Being positive is difficult thing to be and no one is expected to be optimistic all day everyday, everyone has their down days and that’s completely okay!  You can click here to watch my video.  Give it a thumbs up and comment that you came from my blog!!  That would be awesome!


I hope you all enjoy!  What are somethings you do that helps you stay positive during rough times?  I’d love to know!


Xoxo, Kelly

HAPPY NEW YEAR | 01.17.16

I didn’t forget about you guys, I promise.  I hope every single one of you had a wonderful and Christmas and rung in the New Year right.  I was going to post a what I got for Christmas post again this year, but you’ll never believe what I got!  My boyfriend!!  My dad flew my boyfriend to TX to spend his winter break with me!  How amazing is that?  Which also explains why I haven’t posted anything since last year.

Having my boyfriend here was so awesome.  We did so many fun things and made so many memories.  I obviously took many pictures while he was here and figured I’d share them with you guys.

Before I post the pictures I also wanted to let you guys know that I started a YouTube channel!  You can click here to check it out.  There’s some funny videos with my boyfriend that you’ll die laughing at!  You can subscribe and comment on one of my videos that you came from my blog!  That would be awesome to know!

Very thankful for him and all the memories each one of these photos represents.  I love him so much and I can’t wait for more adventures and memories throughout the years. <3


xoxo, Jelly

PICTURES I LOVE || 12.19.15

Here’s a collection of pictures that I’ve taken over the years that I really enjoy looking at. :)  Enjoy.

I’m almost positive this picture was taken while my mom and I were driving through Oklahoma.  I’m not sure what the meaning behind it all is, but if I remember correctly I saw two of these crosses.  I’ve never seen anything like it.  I thought it was cool.

This photo was taken from my bedroom window in Missouri.  Doesn’t the sky look amazing?  I’ve seen some of the best sunsets in Missouri.

I’m obsessed with the moon.  I didn’t mean to get the branch and leaves but it looks so good.

Slight obsession with the moon. :)

Black and white moon!  I like this with the tree branches peeking in.

This was taken on the Black River in Watertown NY.  One of the nights my friends and I camped on ‘the island.’  Amazing memories on this river I’ll never forget.

My boyfriends brother was burning a bunch of leaves in their fire pit in the back yard and smoked out the whole neighborhood.  He ran inside and told me to come out and look.  I took this picture and I think it looks awesome with him standing there.  Looks like something out of movie.

El Paso, TX - Beautiful sunset and the mountains.

Somewhere in NY :)

My obsession with the moon, once again.

Right before I took off to St Louis, MO.  Sunsets are a beautiful thing.

My boyfriend and I were at Black Pond in Henderson Harbor, NY.  We would always bring his dog because he loves to swim.  We were watching the sun set and I looked over at them, told him to look at me and I captured this beautiful picture of them in the water.  I’m not sure what it is about this picture but I absolutely love it.  I want to get a really nice picture frame and give it to him as a present.  The water just makes it look so peaceful.  Plus, a dog is a mans best friend. ;)

DEAR 2015

Dear 2015,

Thank you for not being completely miserable like 2013 and 2014 were.  This year I really found my happiness and it’s one of the greatest feelings.  From being in such a deep dark place, I never thought I’d ever be happy.  I can proudly say I’ve been through hell and back and I rose up to be a better person and most importantly a more happier person.  I’ve learned a lot about friendships, family, and relationships in general.  Never put effort in where it shouldn’t be.  If you don’t feel something is going to benefit you, don’t do it.  Do everything that makes you happy.  Don’t think so much about what other people think because it will ruin you.

I’m thankful for all the new friendships I’ve made and how happy I am.  I’’m happy I’m happy.  I never thought I’d be this happy.  I’m happy living back in Texas and I’m content with where I’m at.  Everything is going well.  I hope 2016 is as good and even better than 2015 has been.  Always stay positive even in the darkest times.  I’m so thankful and happy happy happy.

INFATUATED WITH THE MOON || 12.13.15

One of my favorite quotes, which I have shared in a previous post is:

there was a reason

that she was so

romantic about

the moon.

it never asked her

questions or begged

for the answers nor

did she ever have

to prove herself

to it.

it was always just

there- breathing

shining,

in ways most

humans can’t understand,

-listening.

- Christopher Poindexter

I’ve always been the person who shouts “look at the moon!” when we’re outside at night.  You’ll always find me capturing photos at night, knowing what time the moon is going to rise and what phase it’s going to be.  There’s something awfully beautiful about it.  Here’s some photos I’ve caught of it over the past few months.  Enjoy.

Blood Moon 2015

Blood Moon 2015

Blood Moon 2015

Blood Moon 2015

I watched the moon rise this night.  It looked so large and amazing.  This was the best picture I could get since the power lines were in the way.

This is one of my favorite pictures of the moon that I’ve captured.  I call it ‘between the trees'

LONG TIME NO POST || 12.12.15

HELLO.

Holy cow, it’s almost been a year since my last blog post.  I regret not keeping up with this blog.  I had some extra time to just be on my computer and remembered this blog I started a year ago.  I read through all my posts and thought how amazing and interesting it was getting to re-read all my thoughts from an entire year ago.  I want to stick with it this time.  I’m not going to let anything get in my way.  I have so much to update you all on..well not a lot but, whatever. ;)

First, I moved!!! I no longer live in lost in the woods, Missouri!  I’ve moved back to Texas and I love it.  It’s December 12 and it was 77 degrees yesterday.  From growing up in New York and experiencing -30 degree weather this time of year, this is complete heaven to me!  Second, I’m a nanny.  It’s not the job I had in mind, but I really do enjoy it.  I spent this past summer in New York with my boyfriend, which is always a splendid time.  

I’m really looking forward to posting many many many more posts here!  Stay tuned because there’s so much more coming your way!


Xoxo, Kelly <3

01.01.15 - HAPPY NEW YEAR

Everyone always says “new year, new me!” and I think that’s so lame.  You can change who you are any day, a new year doesn’t change that.  I usual set goals for myself, things I want to accomplish throughout the year.  Becoming a better you is something I think everyone should try every single day, not just for a couple days into the new year and forget about it.  So my goals aren’t going to be ‘be nicer’ ‘be a better friend’ nothing like that.  These are big things that I want to accomplish, on top of continuing to be care free and happy throughout all the ups and downs that I may go through this year.  Now at the end of this year I’m going to look back on this post and make another post and see what I actually accomplished and if I didn’t accomplish something I’ll explain why.  I think this will give me more courage to go after what goals I set.

The first thing I want to do is purchase my first semester of college.  I’m going online because I personally prefer.  I finally have enough money so I plan on starting this when I return from New York at the end of January.

My second goal ties into my first goal, but I’m hoping to at least finish half my degree by June, which may be hard because I’m starting a job and I’ll be moving so my Internet and things will be shut off in May and I’ll be on the road for a couple days to get to Texas, but if I don’t finish by then I hope to be half way done by August.

My third goal is to make a healthy transition back to Texas.  Going to place where I don’t know anybody is difficult, but I’ve moved twice in 1 year so hopefully third time is a charm and it’s easier for me.

My fourth goal is to save up money and really pay attention to what I spend my money on.  I want to be able to still afford to visit New York every few months and still be able to afford my schooling. 

My fifth goal is to get a job with USAA.  I’m going to be studying child development in school so working at their daycare will be such a great experience and a plus is they might help pay for my schooling which would be such an ideal situation for me.

So those are my 5 big goals I hope to accomplish this year.  I know things won’t come easy and I’ll work hard for what I want and study even harder.  We’ll see where this year takes me and see if I’m strong enough to conquer all the battles.  I wish everyone a happy new year and I hope this year doesn’t disappoint!  What are some of your goals for 2015?

Xoxo, Kelly