I need to talk | 02.20.16

Lately all I’ve really been posting on here is about the YouTube videos I have been uploading.  I want this to be platform for my videos but also a place where I can post about my life and other things I’m passionate about.  This past week I’ve been incredibly busy getting things done that I’ve had to get done. I was so busy I barely had time to just have me time. I love being busy and productive. Today is Saturday and it’s the first day in a week where I don’t NEED to do anything. I woke up early and went to the farmers market and the store to get a few things. I don’t have any plans for the remainder of the day and I feel so empty. I feel like I should be doing something and being productive but I don’t have anything to do. I feel like I’m doing nothing with my life, which is wrong because I am. It just feels so weird to not be doing anything because I’ve been so busy. Does this happen to anyone else? It’s just a weird feeling and it stresses me out. It’s kind of ridiculous.


Another thing I wanted to talk about was friendships. I have very very few friends. I don’t have any friends where I live right now, all my friends are from my hometown, which I only get to communicate with through text and social media. Lately my friendships have been feeling like so much work and I don’t think thats right. I don’t want my friendships to feel like work, I just want them to be. You know what I mean? I don’t want to feel like I need to entertain and talk to them 24/7 because I honestly don’t have the time to be on the phone 24/7. (My phone is always on me so if anyone needed anything I’d be able to answer.) But I don’t have time to be glued to my phone and have lengthy conversations with them all day everyday. Ending friendships that you think just aren’t working out is one the hardest things to do and I have no clue on how to go about it. It’s almost worst than breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend. Anyone have any advice on how to end a friendship but not have it turn into a drama filled bullshit ass thing? Please help. Hahahah.


Thanks for reading, I’ve had so much on my mind lately and I’m glad this is a place where I can let all of it out at. See you in my next post! :) It’ll be a more positive one, I promise.

xoxo, Kelly